An ER visit planned

But not for me, thank goodness. I'm as strong and healthy as an ox.

Not Marshall, sadly. He's functioning at such a low level, forgetting details as soon as he learns them, so many things are going wrong at the same time. I spoke with the Psych advice nurse late last night and she suggested that he may be a good candidate for inpatient treatment.

Marshall has agreed to come to the ER with me, I have provided him (at his request) with a long, detailed list of all of my concerns.

This is a low point for me, I'm sad that things have sunk to this level. I am feeling quite strong myself, both physically and mentally, and I understand that his mental health is not connected to me, it's his and he has to deal with it. A couple of my friends who've dealt with loved ones who suffered from mental illness, one of whom did not survive, have been encouraging me very strongly to have him committed before bad or scary things happen.

I'm not angry with Marshall, although for a long time I'll admit I was. Those angry reactions stopped the moment I realized that he had no control over this actions, that he's quite ill, and now mostly I pity him, he needs help in a big way.

Last night I asked Marshall what he would tell me to do if I were his sister. He was silent. I know what he'd say, and I'm doing it today.

Pray for healing for Marshall.