Chemo is scheduled to begin on Friday, 11/18

The chemo nurse from Walnut Creek called today to schedule my first infusion, and it will be on Friday, 11/18 at 1:30. My dear friend Cindy is flying in to take me and be with me that weekend. My sister has agreed to take the next one, which will be December 2.

HOWEVER, if the CT scan is positive then the chemo will not happen. There will be treatment, but not chemo.

So, as I feel my shoulders start to edge their way up to my ears with stress, I hear Ellen's voice telling me to soften my shoulders, to effectively disengage them, and the stress headache never starts.

Today I got some wonderful gifts, perfect for lying in bed being a prima donna. A pair of pink pjs. matching fuzzy bed socks, undies, a big soft robe and fluffy slippers - I can't wait to use them. I only wish I didn't have to . . . but I guess I have to.

I am sorry folks feel that I've been unreasonably harsh to Marshall two posts back. If you knew us well you'd know this has been happening for a long time, we've seen counselors, therapists, our rabbi, you name it. I was hoping to have Marshall 'get it' when he read what I wrote, but he did not. It's all very sad.