Finally talked to the apt. manager

Here's what he said: his parents have taken over the renting of the unit, they have decided not to commit to anyone until the work (esp. new kitchen floor) is complete. He asked if I would like to continue to be considered, and I said yes. I also said it was hard to see him being humiliated in front of me, and he said it wasn't the first time and won't be the last time. Plus he told me that if it were up to him, he'd rent to me.

I am stopping by his place tonight to pick up my credit report to use if I find another place that looks good.

I ironed for 2 hours this morning (which used up something like 400 calories) and I'm all caught up. I also walked the dog for our usual 1/2 mile, and somehow it seemed easier than it usually does.

Therapy for me was today. I cried, as usual, and felt better after, also as usual.

I feel so much anguish all the time, when there's a moment of feeling even slightly better I notice it. I felt that way during ironing.