feeling optimistic

I just finished ironing. Otherwise it will be awhile until the shirts the boys need are ready.

At the 'dispensary' where I buy my cannabis cookies, I discovered that there are two strains of marijuana - one that helps you to relax the way a couple of drinks might, and the other - meant for pain - which kinda speeds you up a little. I feel wide awake and happy.

THANK G-D!!

Mike, my oncologist, agreed to order a bone scan and a CT scan to confirm that I am in remission, in which case we carry on with the original plan. If, however, I am not in remission, it will mean that the chemo didn't do its job and that we need to revisit the plan. I am confident that I am in remission.

I haven't been wearing fragrance since all this started because every medical appt. I've had in the last several months it would have been inappropriate to wear it. But I love smelling good, and I've decided to change my signature scent for the first time in almost 10 years. Next time I can drag my ass into a department store I will find the right one for me. I look forward to being able to do this again soon.

I discovered about 18 years ago that firing my friends was leaving me with no friends. Over the next several years I made it a point to get to know people and like them, and then nurture the relationship over time and miles. Then six years ago we moved to the East Bay and made a whole bunch of new friends and continue to do so. I am so incredibly blessed to have so many dear and close friends, my eyes fill up just thinking about them. I wish I could speak to everyone personally, I really wish I could, but there aren't enough hours in the day. In March, when I will not be having treatment, I plan to reconnect as much as possible.

Pray for an ongoing good attitude.