my hair

has begun its departure, strange as anything. I'm so cold these days, even when I'm all bundled up. I told my mother this today and she agreed that being cold was very unusual for me. Now I have to wear a hat all the time simply for warmth. I look like a very frum (religious) woman, covered from wrist to ankle to collar bone and no hair showing. It's nice to know I'm not the only woman who dresses like this.

I'm spending a lot of time thinking about what will happen IF Veronica's worry is justified: this is a very big lump, 10 cm. in diameter. Like a golf ball. If this is not a hematoma, then what the hell is it? Veronica mentioned last week that it might be the cancer. OK, it was mentioned but . . . as Cindy likes to say, we don't know anything yet.

Cooooool long-sleeved t-shirts arrived yesterday which say 'Between cancer and Judith, cancer should be scared!' Avi, Marshall and I all wore ours today, Heshy will wear it when the weather is not so bitter. I've purchased a bunch for particular people, including Harriet, who said it first, but I'll be happy to order shirts for anyone who wants them. There's a minimum order of 10, I think, can be different sizes, and they cost $20 each. If you want to order a shirt, pls email me at judygail@sbcglobal.net. The shirt is white and thicker than a T-shirt, the letters are blue bordered with pink. No other designs or words, only as described. They are available in Child S, M, L, XL (which is also adult small) and Adult M, L, XL, 2XL. You can order just 1 if you like, or many. When/if I get enough orders I will place the order and it will take a couple of weeks.

Look, I don't expect many people will want to wear this, I'm just letting you know it's available.

Crappy weather is depressing. Cancer is depressing. I think I'll watch a movie in bed tonight.